Tuesday, October 07, 2008

You showed me love....

This is a tribute to my blogger friends...
Oh all ye faithful, joyful and triumphal oh come ye to blogger er land...
I would like to thank all of thoughts that have stuck by my though laughter and threw my tears...If it not have been for the kindness that you have showed me and you know who you are Walker, super.. I might not be here today...
I think I am going to write a book on the love...Holy crap I can't make it without him...Oh yes you can guide...I mean who better to write it than the darn girl herself as she speaks about how to over come the nagging and pulling on your heart strings...
Why do I care? I often used to tell my patients that our heart is a live it feels...It is electric...
and now I can feel their hopeless, their pain damn it all why do I give a shit?? What is wrong with me??
I have to say that I did it, I lost myself. I have made plenty of mistakes over the past year that would test any ones love and I don't blame Engineer guy at all for letting go...
So, I ask myself what is the lesson I must learn this time? Be thankful for the love that you have been given. Be thankful for the gifts that God has given you...I still strive for greatness even though I have fallen short. I have truly been blessed with a gifted child that will serve as someone who breaks down the stereotypical thoughts of interracial people. This kid is so beautiful inside he makes you have to have hope for our government. He transcends onto greatness and I am not just saying that because he is my son...I am so truly blessed to have someone as beautiful in my life. I think it was me that needed him more than he needed me as he tries and shelter me from my pain I know that he feels my sadness no matter how much I try and conceal it. unfortunately he has the curse like I do and can feel the pain and sadness of others. He is truly special and if I never do anything else he will have been worth all the pain that I have gone though to make things right for him. I was lost with out being his mommy and I hope to go back to the virtuous woman that I was so that he can stand up and be proud of his mommy.
No fear bloggers for I have a plan in order that I might save lives again. That the work that I do will have meaning and purpose far and greater than it has ever been. An ohd' to the blogger friends that have stuck by me though thick and thin...I might not always be worthy but I will be the last one to hang on for dear life...supporting you all no matter what. I have been known for being crazy but is that really all a bad thing. I accept people for the good the bad and the ugly and my love will never waver. So blogger friends I say till the end of the ocean till the very last grain of sand I will be behind you no matter what you do on the Ferris wheel at the county fair!!

8 comments:

Walker said...

There is only one thing to do in life and thats to be true to yourself.
The rest will fall in place on it's own as you make your way through the piles of tribulations dropped in front of you.

The prize, there is no prize other than the satisfaction of doing the right thing for the right reason at the right time.

I think you should, write a book.
I'd buy a copy :)

Thank you for the kind words but you don't need to thank a friend you just smile once in a while or tell him to fuckoff when he says "show me your boobs" HA HA HA

The sun warms the body but a smile warms the soul ;)

GoteeMan said...

No room in my life for judgment against others or rejection... we are all at different stages and places in our lives... It's hard enough just to be real and authentic.

You are never really alone, even when it feels alone. Each life touches so many others. I have really understood for a bit what it means that "no man is an island". We may pull ourselves aside and out of circulation sometimes, but truly, there will always be those we are connected with, no matter what... those who will love and accept us unconditionally.

Just focus on who you truly are, and let everything else, including any negative opinions from others, just fall away...

hugs...

J / (goteeman.blogspot.com)

sally said...
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Beth said...

honey, you will NEVER fine me on the ferris wheel....no. way!!!

But I love ya still....

um...what's up with sally and her "blackwhitemeat"????? :)

Just telling it like it is said...

Thanks Gottee: reading what you wrote mellows my heart in my dark days and keeps me hopeful that this too shall pass..
Beth; my love I have no idea who that sally thinks she is and why in the H-E-L-L sticks she thinks she can enter my realm of wonderfully talented writers to comment some bull crap...

Just telling it like it is said...

Thanks Gottee: reading what you wrote mellows my heart in my dark days and keeps me hopeful that this too shall pass..
Beth; my love I have no idea who that sally thinks she is and why in the H-E-L-L sticks she thinks she can enter my realm of wonderfully talented writers to comment some bull crap...

ssgreylord said...

how blessed are you with your son. how cool is he. how cool of a mom are you. you deserve every bit of peace and happiness.

Just telling it like it is said...

Walker: ;) is all I can say and thanks for making me laugh at times that I could only felt darkness