Friday, January 12, 2007

I Said It...I'm Such Dork


It is the ever so sequential moment in a person’s life where one opens their heart and tells their Boyfriend/Girlfriend that they indeed LOVE them..

Thoughts of you that know me know that I am not about feelings( Damn it Jim I’m a Marine). I would rather eat grubs in a rain forest, I would rather strip naked and go streaking through the parking lot (Oh wait a minute I think I have already done that not so painful), I would rather be subjected to watching basketball for 48 days and nights(I can only handle so much beer at one time), and I would rather make out with David Hasselhoff…okay let’s not go that far.

I would rather do all of thoughts things than tell “Engineer Guy” in person that I really Love him. It is a mystery to why I can tell all of the blog world my most intimate details or share the gross stories of my life (like when I was shit on at work, hold on Steve I am getting to that story).

I have obsessed about this moment for the last month. I knew that the time would come that I would have to really tell him how I feel about him. Here is the problem we both are people that have a hard time with talking about our emotions. I was a dinner with my girlfriend the other night and she says to me, “I don't understand all of the text messages you guys send to each other” or the fact that when I really have to tell him something personal I must write to him via e-mail. I tell her I am not sure; it is like I need a filter. I need to filter my feelings through any means necessary. What’s wrong with me?? She is unsure, but offers the fact that I am from Arkansas. I concur.

So, Love was in the air the other night, and I was feeling somewhat brave (I think that is the wine talking). My sweetheart is of town right now with a cold and runny nose(my poor baby). I am feeling he needs a little bit of my love. I think it is time to tell him that I love him. I open my phone to call him, then decide I should just text him (thank Goodness for technology). I write, “I love you J” and there you have it. The moment I have been obsessing over for the past month or so. He writes back, “ this is not how I imagined telling you, but I love you too”.
Awe, he loves me too. Yep, we are in touch with each other. He’s from the country too. I think this is how all country folks relay their feelings for each other…Awe, My heart skips a beat he loves me...

I'm such a dork...

11 comments:

Beth said...

your a dork, but it's so cute! I remember that feeling...wanting to say it but you're afraid to say it first, what he doesn't say it back..all that.

Now maybe you can actually tell him in person!

Just telling it like it is said...

I know Beth...I can't help myself...I knew that he loved me..what can I say he did buy me a trash can for christmas..now that's love..

awaiting said...

Awwww, that's so cute!

But then again, I am a romanticist at heart! :)

Bobbie Jean said...

A trash can for Christmas...and you were STILL nervous to tell him you loved him? You silly chick. Glad it's all out in the open now...next will be the face to face when he comes home!

Queen of the Mayhem said...

I am AlWAYS much better at writing things than saying them in person! SO glad to hear that he loves you too! There is something to be said for country folk.....salt of the earth, if you ask me! ( Also an Arkansas girl!)

Christina_the_wench said...

I told hubby I loved him first in an email, so I feel you.

We've been married 4 years now.

Scared? hehe

Brian said...

I bit different than the time I have told someone I loved them but to each their own...

Slick said...

Dork or not...you took the BIG step :)

Congrats

Kristin said...

Yea! Love is in the air... have fun celebrating it!

Just telling it like it is said...

Just so you all know...we were both dorks this sunday and finally told each other in person of our undieing love for each other...great my life ios like a trashy soap opera..Sweet!

Superstar said...

*gasp*
OMG
~flips through new dating handbook~

According to the book "the rules" a women is not supposed to say it first!
OMG!

Still how awesome is that??? That is so sweet! Love the pic!