Thursday, September 28, 2006

Life in Like a Box of Chocolates...U Never Know What Your Going to Get

I was watching Forest Gump this weekend...seeing life though his simple young blue eyes and I thought to myself...

Self Forest's mother was right when she said life is like a box of chocolates you never know what your going to get...most of the time life is sweet, but sometimes you get that chocolate that you just don't like....

I have come to realize that "Mister Guy" is my Mr. Big (Sex in the City)and no matter how I look at it...no matter how much he loves me it will never work...I have realized this...oh it still hurts but I have realized that the fight is over and I am throwing in the towel...I can no long float like a butterfly and sting like a bee...

The amazing thing is all this time I have been dating random guys mostly all that I have not been attracted to or ones that I think only want my body...(or maybe that is just a figment of my imagination) but let me have the dream people...

I have met one guy that through it all has never changed who he was... has given me space when I have needed it and who has put a smile on my face...He's younger...he's smart and he is a family person who cares sooo deeply from what I can tell...He is patient and kind beyond...he treats me like a princess...

I have realized people are different and no one will be my fire fighter guy...no one will be Mister guy...but there will be someone who is sweet...who I am attracted too...who makes me smile...who makes me feel important and special...who respects me and what I do and will listen tooo all all my gross stories..and never fails me....hasn't lied to me...

It really is just the begining of our relationship, but I am hopeful...

Sometimes I tell my patients not to give up, that God sometimes has a bigger and greater life planned for us that we may not dream for ourselves....

6 comments:

My Two Cents said...

I really wish you all the best. This new guy sounds really sweet, but I'm not sensing a lot of excitment when you talk about him....I hope I am wrong about that. You can only feel what is real in your heart so just make sure you are not settling....that can be easy to do when your going through the frustrations of dating. If this is a situation that you truly want, embrace it with your heart. If someone isn't everything that you want, that won't change and it's not fair to either of you. Regardless, enjoy every little moment because whenever that true love hits you it will just enhance the experience.

Just telling it like it is said...

Two: well...I am still getting over Mister guy...I know that this takes time...and Engineer guy..we are taking it slow..having a good time along the way...working really on a friendship...which I know is really the key to a long relationship...I have learned alot from my past relationships knowing that I really am a relationship kind of person...so in order to have some success in this relationship I am just letting it really take its coarse...I do get excited when I see him...he is fun to hang out with...he let's me be me and does not get jelous...it is great...I do really really like him alot...he's smart, kind and funny without trying to be...most of all there is amazing chemistry between us...nice for a change...he sparks my mind as well as having a strong physical attraction...he makes me feel special and important...which is what I really want...In the past it seems like I got one or the other...but never both...so I am hopeful...I am more at peace these days and the more time I spend with him the more I like him...

My Two Cents said...

Now that's more like it :) I want you to be happy and as always I wish you all the best!

Just telling it like it is said...

thanks..two...thanks for being on my side....

Anonymous said...

Men are pigs. Believe ME gurl, I know. Dang...

Anonymous said...

... except your new guy, that is. He sounds like a decent dude (for a white boy, anyway).