Sunday, April 19, 2009

Feelings...I don't have any feelings...

Laser guy and I had a little bit of a tiff the other day...
Okay maybe it was a big tiff...but what can I say I'm a little shut down when it comes to feelings.
He wants to talk about it...
Can you imagine that? I'm not really good at doing that talking about feelings and stuff.
He wants to know how I really feel about him...
Can we talk he a minute people? I like him I really do. He's fun to be with he makes me laugh all the time. He's generous and has a kind heart, but I can't I just can't talk about feelings.
I'm just not ready yet for that.
What's wrong with me? He held me tight the other night stroking my hair, rubbing my back telling me how beautiful he thought I was and still I clammed up. I ran away back to my house. He's a little hurt and I can tell it in his voice, I feel bad.
I really feel bad...what is a girl going to do?
speak to me people I need help.

6 comments:

Christo Gonzales said...

cow boy up....

Just telling it like it is said...

doggy: your right I need to cowboy it up...

Walker said...

I think you shouldn't have to tell someone about how you feel.
I believe if there is chemistry there then you both will feel the electricity without uttering a word.

Why did you run?
You still holding on to something you should be letting go.
Why is he asking?
He should know how you feel.

Let's see, the last time I said hello for the first time and 15 minutes later we were naked on the couch.

The time before took 30 minutes, I get faster with age.
I don't have time to waste at my age.

If the chemestry is there then the fireworks will erupt.
Maybe he gets your heart racing so fast you have to run.

Just telling it like it is said...

Oh Walker,
My clothes we off and I did let him take advantage of me...I mean really a couple of times that day...
It's not him...
It's me I got to get over somethings that I have let linger in my heart after all he shouldn't have to pay for some other person's mistakes...

Just telling it like it is said...

and believe me there's chemistry....
Not like I have for you of coarse...you still always be my first crush...

buffalodick said...

Tell him the truth, but choose your words carefully..