What is it with me and guys from West Virgina

What is it with me and Men from West Virgina....
More specifically men from West Virgina that are Engineers..
Friday, I got a call from my Mechanical Engineer guy not to be confused Engineer guy. I met him up for a drink, and to shoot the shit. I have to admit that I knew he was from West Virgina...he's fun to hang out with so I figure why not? Since the break up I have seen him several times...He speaks my language what can I say and the the fact that he was special operation in the air force doesn't hurt. I mean really he's hard, successful, but he's an Engineer and from West Virgina. Sorry I'm out.
In still I enjoyed all the attention he gave me and I will have to tell you later about the story he told me that night...
Basically in his undergrad he had a rule that he wouldn't date women south of heart county...
What that means I'm not sure but what I gathered they had 3 legs and such...
He said, " I understand the inbreeding" What hu? you do? I just don't' get why they don't use birth control...
Who knew?

Etiquette has Never Been My Strong Point...

Dating can be difficult if etiquette is not your strong suit...
Who knew right? Some of my favorite blogs have been about the unpopular popular subjects.
Like about the time that I froze Engineer guys penis...I know right you should have seen his face. I know that I am a Nurse but I am not a condom flavor expert ( that particular condom was part of a party packet that had some condoms with benzocaine, a mild freezer of the penis sos one can last longer for all you guys out there unaware) and we were having a party. I stick to the basics. And for the Record since Engineer guy might read this he never needed the freezing part. I know I still love you too.
Hey there you go I wonder if it is etiquette to stick to the basics? Do I pull out the condom or do I ask him if he has a condom? If I have condoms on me will he think he is getting lucky? Mostly I get out of these awkward situations because I am a nurse and everyone already expects me to play it safe as I always am. Be safe or go home is my moto...
Another difficulty for me when it comes to etiquette is when to bust out the ball talk? Now I am a lady, I don't do boy stuff and anyone that knows me knows this but I am a nurse and we all talk about the testicals... I think it is a requirement or something. I mean really I was only attracted to nursing school for the beneifits of seeing people naked and checking balls. So, how do I fit in the... "my hands have cupped a many of balls in my time"...or No I think your penis is perfect believe me I have seen a lot of peni in my day. That kind of sounds bad doesn't it. Then I can go on to say no I have seen a lot of peni but only professionally. Ummm that sounds bad too. Then what I mean to say is that I have held a lot of old balls with grey hair...here again I am digging myself into a hole.
Oh the dating woes? Will I ever figure it out?
Just to update you on Laser guy...
I couldn't bring myself to see him the other night. Doggie I know I tried to cowboy it up but decided to lay low this week. I got to give it to him he has given me space not pushing me. What guy wants to talk about feelings. Darn if he wasn't just so funny and handsome...
I'm headed out with him tonight for some fun... he promises light talk, lots of laughs and he's providing the condoms...

Bang Bang Bang

Okay Okay I got it...
I have a crazy neighbor...
No really he is off his lunner...
Have you ever had a neighbor that banged the ceiling even when even when it is not you that is making the sound above.
I think this is a first for me...No no I know it is a first...
Bang Bang Bang I hear the neighbor loosing it again except this time I hear the neighbor that is beside me making noise in his bedroom.
Knock Knock I go next door and ask if he can hear the rude neighbor below...
Ummmm He can come to the door right now he is having sex with his boyfriend..
Ohhhh sorry. They were making a lot of noise I don't know what the hell was going on butt I just left dodge....

I'm hoping that all I have to do is...

So, tonight is the talk...
I am hoping to just take off my shirt and expose my boobs...
Then all is forgiven!
Right? Isn't that suppose to work?

Feelings...I don't have any feelings...

Laser guy and I had a little bit of a tiff the other day...
Okay maybe it was a big tiff...but what can I say I'm a little shut down when it comes to feelings.
He wants to talk about it...
Can you imagine that? I'm not really good at doing that talking about feelings and stuff.
He wants to know how I really feel about him...
Can we talk he a minute people? I like him I really do. He's fun to be with he makes me laugh all the time. He's generous and has a kind heart, but I can't I just can't talk about feelings.
I'm just not ready yet for that.
What's wrong with me? He held me tight the other night stroking my hair, rubbing my back telling me how beautiful he thought I was and still I clammed up. I ran away back to my house. He's a little hurt and I can tell it in his voice, I feel bad.
I really feel bad...what is a girl going to do?
speak to me people I need help.

Matter of the heart never easy....

Matters of the heart...
Torn...
Today I saw Engineer guy, saddness fills my heart as I have tried to move on but he lingers in my heart.
I ask myself why? Why can't i just move on?
I spent 3 years of my life with him and I know that he is trying to move as well.
I thought I would be okay seeing him but I'm not sure.
Men from my past keep showing up in my life and I am not sure what is going on...
Please tell me I can get past this feeling that lingers in my heart....

Easter time with My MoMo...

My sister is here in the Valley of the Sun...Watch out here we come. Yesterday I spent countless hours singing and dancing with my little niece MoMo. When ever MoMo and I get together there is nothing but lip gloss, singing, dancing and movie star kisses. I love all of my sister's children as if they are my own, but MoMo has a special place in my heart. She looks just like my sister when she was a little girl flooding back memories of times past. Then of coarse there is the picking fest...thoughts of you that know me know what I am talking about. It was a never ending wonderous day with family, friends and laughter.

Happy Easter to all of you....I was sent this couldn't resist

I honor this Man for his courage and strength....

Pleas take time to read this entry it was sent to me so I didn't write it but it touched my heart.... You're a 19 year old kid. You're critically wounded, and dying in the jungle in the Ia Drang Valley , 11-14-1965, LZ X-ray, Vietnam . Your infantry unit is outnumbered 8 - 1, and the enemy fire is so intense, from 100 or 200 yards away, that your own Infantry Commander has ordered the MediVac helicopters to stop coming in. You're lying there, listening to the enemy machine guns, and you know you're not getting out. Your family is half-way around the world, 12,000 miles away, and you'll never see them again. As the world starts to fade in and out, you know this is the day. Then, over the machine gun noise, you faintly hear that sound of a helicopter, and you look up to see an un-armed Huey, but it doesn't seem real, because no Medi-Vac markings are on it. Ed Freeman is coming for you. He's not Medi-Vac, so it's not his job, but he's flying his Huey down into the machine gu n fire, after the Medi-Vacs were ordered not to come. He's coming anyway. And he drops it in, and sits there in the machine gun fire, as they load 2 or 3 of you on board. Then he flies you up and out through the gunfire, to the Doctors and Nurses. And, he kept coming back.... 13 more times..... And took about 30 of you and your buddies out, who would never have gotten out. Medal of Honor Recipient, Ed Freeman, died last Wednesday at the age of 80, in Boise , ID......May God rest his soul..... I bet you didn't hear about this hero's passing, but we sure were told a whole bunch about some Hip-Hop Coward beating the crap out of his "girlfriend." Medal of Honor Winner Ed Freeman! Shame on the American Media.